Monday, 27 March 2017

i need u


Dear diary..
i miss when he do this..
when he kiss n smell my hand.. 
and when he asks.. 
"faa guna lotion apa?" 
hahahaha.. soalan ni slalu jaa buat asfa tesenyum n tegelak.. 
coz.. tak pernah lahh nak guna lotion time mok kuar ni..
time mau tido adalah.. 
first time juga ni ada laki tanya camtu.. 
bingung jaa asfa jwb soalan diaa.. haha..

harini di kelas.. 
jangan ckp lahh.. 
balik2 tebayang dia niii.. hahahaha
haiiihhh.. sayang sangat dh ngan amjan.. ni..
klu di suruh kahwin paksa ngn laki paling kaya d malaysia ni..
asfa tolak lahh mmg mentah2.. 
sampai lahh amjan yg dtg ni.. hahaha..
haddooiiiiii.. 

i miss him.. everys seconds of my life.. 
every day.. from morning till the end of the day.. 

i want to annoy him every time.. 
meet him.. see him.. stare at him.. 
longer n more longer..

lama bh lagi kan mau kahwin ngn dia.. 
hahahaha.. 
sokaylahh asfa akan tunggu juga dia.. 
sampai dia sedia ni..
asfa lama dh mmg sedia ni hahahaha..
tunggu amjan jaa ni hmm..
asfa bole tahan lagi lahh tunggu dia.. dr break ngn dia.. 

asfa rasa sedih jugalah haritu.. 
i just dont want neither of us said that breakup.. 
but.. he said it.. 
asfa rasa takut sangat ouuu kalau diaa ckp sal benda tu.. 
i cant handle my tears.. 
asfa teingt balik haritu.. 
the day that i cried so hard in the toilet.. 
the day that i guess its the end of the world for me.. 
the day that i think.. 
i got rejected again.. 
i cant imagine how my life will be.. when he not with me anymore.. 
but that day kan.. 
asfa rasa sangat lahh.. 
rasa saat2 bila amjan tiadaa dah.. 
rasa sangat penyesalan tu.. 
rasa suram jaa.. 
rasa kosong gila.. 
i dont want to feel that moment anymore.. 

thats why.. im so afraid.. when he talk again bout it.. 

 i just love him.. 
just him.. 
and i need him in my life.. 
forever.. 

love u jan.. ❤


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