Sunday, 26 February 2017

his mine

Dear diary..
i dunno lah.. its only me or everyone had these kind of feelings..
feelings that sometimes.. i hv so many emotions in one moment..

when i feel happy, and at the same time i feel wanna cry...
when i feel angry, and the same time i feel awful..
when i feel excited, and at the same time i feel scared...

like now,
yaahh i feel very happy now..
and at the same time im afraid..
memang kenyataan sal benda tu asfa xle lah..
asfa kadang kalau rindu dia sangat ...
asfa tenung jaa gambar dia..
sambil tenung gambar dia.. teringat lah smua kenangan ngan dia..

sebelum ada relay ngan dia..
i never feel like this ..
asfa x pernah rasa obsessed sgt with only one person mcm ni..
kalau dulu.. kalau rasa rindu tu..
rindu jaa lah.. mcm biasa..
tapi ni.. rasa lain sangat..
every word i said.. i really meant it for real..
he is my forever..

for now..
i just can love him even more..
theres no turning back..
coz theres no way i can turn back on him.. i love him so much..

im just afraid..
yah.. asfa mengakulah.. asfa ni penakut..
no.. asfa lebih takutkn kalau dia tinggalkn asfa drpd hantu skrg ni..
im afraid of his healthness..
im afraid all the things happen around him..
macam.. mau tau jaaa..
setiap saat dia di mana..
buat apa..
dengan siapa..
oke kah dia...
benda ni smuaa.. berulang2 jaa..
dr asfa bangun pagi.. sampai tido..
then bangun lagi...

i love him so damn much..
if i can show how big my heart is.. for him.. is that can prove that how much real that i cant leave him?..

he is part of my life..

"hope out of despair"
berharap daripada berputus asa..
my only one goal rn..
i have no reason to givup to have him.. for the rest of my life..
memang mau imagine dia ngn girl lain.. rasa pahit gilaaa... hishhh..
mau imagine dia ngan asfa jaa..
wuishhh macam mmbara tetiba ni hati hahahaha..
yalahh amjan tu asfa punyaa..
no woman can touch him..
only me jak..
selain his relative lahh..
selain tu.. memang mau kena belasah memang oleh asfa..
ada hati mau sentuh bui ku..
eeeeee geram pulak kalau difikir..
yalahhh.. kau fikir amjan ni menan ka..
kaw senang2 jaa amek dr aq.. haishhh..
batcat pulak aq rasaa..

so, i warn lahh gegurl lain ni..
yah.. u can talk wif my bui.. if only u have important reason jaa..
and, no touching... !!!...

oke lahhh...
makin membara pulak hati ni.. hahaha..
stop lah.. stop..
tu jaa lahh mau cakap..
im amjan's.. and amjan is asfa's..
ingat tu..
kbaii hahaha.. ❤❤❤



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