Monday, 24 October 2016

inside n out

Dear diary..
dah asfa cakap kan..
lepas jumpa mesti tambah rindu..
hmm ndada lainnn..

maka tadi.. habis apps nya kena boom
"love you" hahahaha
nasib juaa dia balas... kalu nda mejok aq hahahaha puekk trep nya mejok
kalu asfa mejok.. nda juga tu dia tau..
sbb kn asfa nda pena mejok hahahaha..

tepikir juaa ni..
hmmm kalu asfa matured lah..
ada kmungkinan ka yaa asfa akan pandai mejok?..
jelez asfa kurang ka yaa?
ehhh i dont want to mature bh..
nda best.. nda bole gila2..
matured is boring.. bwek

tapi.. tu lah..
asfa perasan juaa dulu amjan cam asfa juaa.. nemau jd 20..
skali kan.. nehhh matured suaa bui sy..
bole suaa jadi bapa.. untuk anak2 kami..
ciaa hahahaha amiin .. amiin.
im just curious jaa..
how im gonna be.. when im matured?
tp tulahhh yg asfa perasan..
sikap peramah .. mmg xda dah dlm dr asfa.. kecuali ngn kwn lama.. im just okay.. but if wif a new people.. im not..

mcm.. aritu lahh naik bas..
asfa langsung tak tegur orang sebelah asfa.. beckap sepatah pun xda...
im just feel weird eh.. ngn diri sendiri..
sebab biasanya.. kalau org duduk sebelah asfa jaa.. asfa org pertama akan tegur... ndatau lah..
maybe sebab i just feel so lazy to say hi.. or what.. atau maybe sbb slalu kena permainkn oleh kawan kan..
sebab tuu malas maw bekenalan..
im just not that type of person dah..

coz im tired hearing people said..
"jangan telampau peramah faa"
"jangan percaya sangat faa"
"bongoknya jugak faa"
im just want to delete these type of comments from people..
just tired of hearing it..
penat dah dengar benda tu berkali2 kan.. hahaha..
yeah.. everyone akan kenal asfa sebagai seorang yg pendiam jaa d u ni..

ohh yaa.. ada juga satu perkara asfa benci.. bila orang yg asfa kenal.. but sebenarnya kami x rapat..
tapi bilaa dia tau asfa rapat ngan someone yg penting bg dia.. or someone she like.. then tetiba mok rapat..
oke.. benda ni annoying gilaa..
org2 camni.. p brambus..
memang asfa x layan langsung if i know..

if u wanna know me..
jgn bg reason sbb someone lahh..
just know me.. who i am..
dont judge me.. before u know me better..
hmmmmm.. i just wanna be with ma babes rn..
especially ma cute mommy.. hm..

u know guys..
im just kind of person who just like to enjoy the moment..
for example kan...
kalau asfa ngan amjan..
if i got a chance lahh date wif him again..
first thing jaaa..
i will look himm.. top to bottom..
then.. little details bout himm..
such as.. his watch.. his hands.. his eyes.. sometimes his eyebrows.. hahahaha
dunno.. asfa mmg camtu..
then.. if puas dah.. then the scenery.. i feel the wind.. and i will look somewhere else.. hahahaha..
yahhh thats me..

macam td..
asfa bantu ibu buat kejaa..
hmmm.. sedih jugalahh.. actually kan im just so sad lahh tgok ibu struggling with her works till late night..
dah lahh work overtime.. hmm..
when i look at her.. closely..
i saw her white hair.. her wrinkles.. on her sweet face.. her clothes.. her eyes... her hands..
ohhh buu.. just wait for me.. eh
hmmm.. im screaming inside actually..
then suddenly she said..
"sorry lah faa, ibu tak dapat luang masa sikit ngan asfaa.. banyak keja ibu"..
mmg situu mcm maw menangis jaa..
but still im just smiling and hug her from behind..
*takpalah buu.. sini asfa bantu* ..
and so i stop doing my assignments eventhough belambak gilaa..
bantu ibu kiraa semuaa keja dia.. hm
then jam 11 gitu.. siap dh..
asfa p lah buat kejaa..
and u know.. ibu sanggup tido sblh tetap duduk asfa.. sbb ibu tak dapat luang masa ngn asfa kan.. at least dia kata.. dia le tmnkn asfa study..
dia temankan asfa sampai dia tetidoo..

hmmm buu.. no need lahh..
asfa yg patut temankan ibu..
memang tak dapat dah study camtu..
menangis dah.. kuar dah airmata.. hm..
then lap jaa airmata.. bangunkn ibu..
and tmnkn ibu masuk bilik.. hmmmm
thats why jugaa mencari amjan tetiba.. hahahahaha.. bongok..
maw ceriakan hati jaa..
i dunno.. maybe thats the way i found my happiness.. cari amjan.. fikir sal amjan.. k happy.. senyum dh sikit..
hmmmm..

k daahh merepek jaa byk
hahahaha.. babai
goodnight

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