Tuesday, 18 October 2016

deep breath

Dear diary...
lastnight i had promise to myself..
i wont lie again..

and today..
my mom just call me..
and asks me..
"faa.. kw masi ngan budak spa tu?"
im startle ..deep breath
*yaa bu.. napa?*
"dia d mana suda faa? berapa lama lagi dia di sana?"
*dia d tawau dah bu.. practical dah dia*
"ouhh.. wah cepatnyaa.."
*yaa bu.. *
"kamu masi contact ka faa? selalu kamu calling?"
*masi contact bu.. tp jarang dah calling*
"ouhhh.. jadi wassap jaa lah?"
*iyaa bu.. tp itu pun kadang2 jaa*
"ouhhh.. oke juga dia faa?"
*sangat oke bu.. sama perangainya ngan kakak*
"ouhh yaka?"
*yaa bu.. dia lah selalu yang suwuh asfa study.. and asfa yg selalu kacau dia.. bukan dia..*
"ouhh baguslah juga tu.. "
*yaa.. bu*

and tetiba abah kol.. hmmm
u know guys.. this what we call a mother's instinct..
sepandai mana pun.. kw try sbunyi..
she will always know..
eventhough u re not near them..
coz.. ibulah yang kandungkan kita selama 8 bulan lebih.. dia yg lahirkn kita..
we cant see the world without them..
we cant live today.. without them..

i guess that was amjan trying to say..
biarlah kita ni jarang calling..💕
kadang-kadang jaa chat..
still juga syg sesama sendiri..
perasaan rindu tuu.. buang laut dulu..
"priority come first"
okey jan.. i understand now..

yaa asfa tau.. mula2 mmg susah..
and i know tears may come off..
but what can we do?
we r still strangers.. who love each other..

sekarang ni..
asfa cuma bole..
berdoa jaa.. coz i know u want to balas budi parents dulu.. thats was ur plan..
 "semoga amjan sentiasa di bawah perlindunganNya"

just take care of him..
till the right time come..
soon or later..
live or died..
im just gonna stay..
"fi hifzillah"

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