Monday, 22 August 2016

biasanyaa..

Dear diary...
its ma last day lastnight at my home in tawau..
memang sedih gilaaa.. sbb mcm last dahh tido atas katil size queen..
pelok bantal guling..
pelok selimutt teballll.. ya ampun..
tido bwh kipas sejuk malam2 sambil selimut sampai ke hidung...
arghhhhh ma fav style of sleeping
hahahaha...

eventhough lahhh..
dekat jaa pun kk..
8 jamm jaa kunuk dr tawau..
tp tetap jugaaa rasa rindu..
tp tuulahh asfa lg rindu bilik asfaa..
dr siblings asfaa bahahahaga.. sandii..
sebab dibilik jaa tu asfa rasa mcm private..
i can jump on ma bed...
i can sing... without anybody hear me..
i can screammm as much as i can..
i can cry as much as can.. without anybody know..

entahlahhh.. asfa rasa mcm lebih suka buat activity yg senyap n teng jaa..
mcm.. melukis.. mewarna.. bebasikal kaa.. dgr lagu.. tgok hujan.. nikmati hujan.. buat tnh liat yg pasuu tu..
semuaa lahh benda yg senyap dan tng..
asal x bising arr.. coz i will easily feel stress..

walaupun lahhh mmg ramai org yg kenal asfa ni.. sprt seorang yg minat benda lasak.. n supporting semuaa apa..
but actually..deep inside..
i just like some kind a slow motion version..

and.. tgok dr segi laguu yg asfa minat pun.. kbyknnya.  lagu balada.. or lagu yg slow2..
such as.. because im stupid, kau pergi, i'll be waiting for you, if you, secret love, dealova, i love you for a thousand years, if i die young, love rain, fox rain,
and ma fav 'what should i do'-boys over flower... lagu yg pntganglahhh.. kalu asfa dgr asfa tak kuar airmata..
asal dgr jaa lagu tuu tyme otw p twu..
mmg laju jaa airmata ni.. sobbsobbs..
tgok lirik diaa pun best jugalaahh..

sbb tyme otw p tawau lahh slalu buat asfa sedihh..
coz.. biasaanya.. p tawau ada jugaa amjan kan.. but skang xdaa dh..
biasanyaa p tawau.. maybe 50/50 bole jaa jumpa diaa kan..
skang.. susahh dhh..
asfa try giilaaa.. x fikir benda nii time balek twu.. try tido kaa dlm pjlnn balek.. but.. asal dgr laguu nii jaa..
duushhhhh!!!! basah pipi
mungkin.. mcm dgr mengadaa2 kan..
tp tulahh hakikatnyaa..

asfa mmg camni..
and will be always.. be like this..
ribut kaa tsunami kaa.. gempa bumi..
samaa jaa hahaha
tp tulahh satu benda jaa yg boleh ubah asfa.. sikiiit lah..
"breakup"
tuu lahh benda yg buat asfa berubah..
sbb asfa penaa rasa sakit kan..
how a guy hates ur look..
and after breakup.. berubahh gila2
guna makeup n lipstik semuaa apa..
mau dia feel regret..
and... try to be confident wif urself..

asfa dulu.. x pena pun post pic ku..
lepas breakup.. p post..
sbb hati memberontakk gila dh tyme tuu..

i guess lahh..
everyone need to change.. for their future.. soon or late.. theres gonna be changes..

and kalu mlm2 camnii..
mmg pantanglahh x stalk smua acc nyaa..
twitter ka.. insta ka.. fb.. ws.. wc..
smuaalahh..
walaupun lahhh semuaa acc nyaaa
suda dikasi fav.. bintg2..
buhuhuhuhu... tp tetap jugaaa maw stalk.. tengok balik semua postnyaa..
tp asfa pling sukaa lahh tgok twitter nya... coz sampai skang masii.ada pic asfa jd wallpaper nyaa..
sukaa jaa.. buka twitter nyaa..
acc tu jaa kot masi ada pic asfa situ..
hurmmm..
mmg stiap mlm lahh tunggu text diaa..
and rasa hampaa gila kalu phone vibrates tgh mlm sekali bukan diaa punya noti pun.. rasa sedihhh gila hahahaha..
tp.. asfa faham jugaa lah..
rasa besalah gilaa kalu asfa chat ka..
call tyme diaa busy or study..
eishhh mengacauu jaa aq..
nda bole thn rindu..
so.. thn rindu kat blog nii jaa lahh mlm ni.. sobbssssobs.. hahaha

ndapa lahhh.. kami dua2 jugaa
sdg bjuang utk masa depn kann..
masa depn family.. smuaa apa..
so.. soon or later.. kami akan jumpa jugaa tu.. so.. now.. kenalahhh sabar
sesabar sabarnyaaa ..
aku tetap juga syg diaa..
as much as before..
or maybe even more than before..

i guess thats all for tonight..
goodnight ❤

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