Friday, 6 May 2016

tears..

Dear diary...
hurmmm.. donno lah..
its quiet complicated now..😞
asfa ni telampau over ke?
tau tak apa yg asfa takut?
sometimes kan... if u love someone so much.. in the end they just don't love u anymore.. 😢

yeah.. asfa kuat tido dah sekarang..
u know why? just hoping that I can see him in my dreams..
and yeah.. I dreamt bout him again..
its like.. I've seen him more often in my dreams than in reality life.. 😞

we always spend like hours in chats..
but now? maybe its just 20-30 minutes..
everyday.. takut jak.. dr jam.. ke minit ke saat..

arrghhhh!!! apa mau buat ni?
netau dah asfa mok buat apa dah 😭
takut bhaa.. kalu amjan.. selalu camni..
I'm just afraid.. that he will give up on me.. 😞 and.. its 7th may tomorrow ..
just donno whats gonna happen next..
sedih jak eh.. rasa malam ni..
I just don't have that spirit anymore..

amjaaaaaaaaannnnnn!!!! bongok I miss u!!! kalu kau sunyi.. please know that I'm here.. 😭 .. I'm still ur princess right? is it? aku ni.. tamak eh?
I just want like 24 hours.. texting u..
staring at ur pictures.. and hear ur voice.. gila dah kau Asfa..
sedih wehhhh!!!! bila kau rindu sgt ngn org tu.. but u just can't do anything.. 😞

amjan tido dah... 😭
hurmm.. netau ni.. esok p tawau ke tak.. sbb ibu mcm x nak pegi .. 😞
guys.. doakan kami sentiasa bersama eh..

barusan gik airmata ni mengalir..
hurmm.. donno lah dpt ke tak dengar suaranya esok.. I hope I can..
I miss him so much..
biasanya.. kalu tahap camni kn...
asfa givap dah...
yeahh.. but donno ngn amjan..
rasa mcm x nak jak lepaskan dia..
netaulah kalu dia...
I'm not that special..
asfa tau jugak diri asfa siapa..
x jugak perasan lebih..
but somehow.. I just hope.. u have the same feeling like I do..
even though.. u always said ..
u love me.. u miss me.. everyday...
but sayang.. hati org le betukar setiap saat.. setiap detik..
that's why.. I keep telling u that I miss u.. I love u amjan..
hurmmm.... maybe dah serik dah kot amjan dengar..

am us still gonna be together?
kita le tahan ke jan?
amjan tahan ke?
tak bosan ke ngan asfa trus?
is it .. gonna be forever?
jawab lahhhh jan... jawabbb please !!!!! 😭...

nasib kan... hati ni dlm bdn...
kalu tak... dah lama asfa simpan jak...
I just can't control myself..
it's hurts me..
dahlah asfaaa tidoooo..
pikir sal ni.. sampai esok pon x abis..
dahlah nangis...
basah bantal jakkkk...
be strong asfaaaa...
be strong asfa...
asfa ...
amjan...
.....
love u Jan ...
never forget that.. ... ...

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