Tuesday, 25 April 2017

my man.. ❤

Dear diary...
i miss him already..

yaa.. i know
in every relationship theres always a fight.. if theres none.. something wrong in ur relay..

everyone hate fighting..
yeahh mostly wif they love one..
like he said..
benda yg kecil tuu lah kena jaga..
sebab benda tuu yg selalunyaa yg memudahkn hubungan tu runtuh..

yaahh..
kita marah sebab kita sayang org tu kan.. kalau bukan sebab marah.. so what then?
asfa ni.. bukan perfect juga..
bukan juga boleh dikatakn robot..
asfa kadang cepat terasa jugaa..
kadang cepat marah jugaa..
senang sangat jeles..
lagi2 kalau org tu asfa sayang sangat..
benda nda logik pun asfa le jeles..
macam dia kan..
asal pempuan lahhh..
dr mudaa sampai tuaa..
asal dia pempuan jaa..
pedulilah dia sapa..
asal pempuan.. mmg asal dia cerita sal pempuan jaa.. asfa jeles dh tu...

u know sayang.. sebab apa asfa tak nak curang ngan abang?
first.. memanglah sebab asfa sayang abang..
asfa nemau abang berubah..
i really dont want to lose ur trust..
i want you to realize that.. not every girl are the same.. im not one of them..
yahh.. eventhough u said ive got many chance to cheat u right? not every man is the same too kan?
bang.. asfa nemau semua kasih sayang yang abang bg asfa tu hilang..
kenangan semua ngan abang tuu..
asfa sukaa semuanya.. asfa rindu semua kenangan tuu..
like i said.. tak sampai sehari pun asfa dah nangis sakan sebab abg tak text asfa.. abg mcm hidup tanpa asfa suaa kan.. apalagi kalau abg dh tiada t..
mestilah lagi teruk dr tu...

make u happy.. is what makes me happy ❤
i love ur naughtyness..
ur shyness..
ur madness..
ur kindness..
ur protectiveness..
ur weirdness..
i love all about you..

jangan pernah berubah yaa bang..
i love you now..
and i will love u forever..
takecare..

miss u ❤

Sunday, 23 April 2017

what should i do?

Dear diary..
yeahh maybe i miss him so much lately..
and know what.. ?
i dreamt him lastnight..
i cant even sleep lastnight..
i keep saying..
i miss him
i miss him
i miss him
i miss him..
thats all.. till i sleep..
yeahh i wanna call him..
but i cant.. i just so blanked.. n confused..

as i said i dreamt him..
i dream him as my roommates..
he sleep above me.. on my two deck bed.. and i sleep below him..
eventhough..  he is just above me..
i keep calling him.. and chat wif him..
and thats funny..
we hv a fight in that dream too..
and.. we r not talking that night..
im sad.. but i wrote a letter for him..
but i dont give it to him..
so i sleep..
when he notice that im sleeping..
he took the letter from me..
he read it..
but when he finished read it..
he didnt notice that im in front of him..
im not sleeping..
i smile.. to him..
i kiss him.. slowly..
and sleep on his arms..

but.. its just a dream..
dream that feel so real..
i wanna cry .. but i cant..
i just cant..

if its just in dream that i can be wif u..
so let me sleep..


Saturday, 22 April 2017

miss u

Dear diary...
u know what love is?

cinta yang takkan pernah henti..
cinta yang takkan pernah hilang..
cinta yang takkan pernah pergi..

bila sedih.. ingat diaa..
bila gembira.. ingatkan dia..

bayangkan perkara indahh..
bayangkan semua kenangan bersama..
yaa.. benda tu sangat buatkan asfa gembira sangat...

rindu sangat ni mau main2 hidung ngan dia..
sebab setiap kali asfa buat benda tu ngan dia kan.. asfa automatik tersenyum ni.. selalu jaa ni tebayang benda tu.. dunnolah.. maybe asfa suka sgt scene tu hahahaha..

u know..
baru baru ni jaa asfa temimpi ada baby kembar tigaa hahahaha..
asfa mimpi first2 tu yang..
ada batu ni atas perut asfa..
batu tu panas2 lah...
but sedaplah benda tu atas perut asfa..
then kan asfa toleh kanan..
ehh ada baby... hihi
semuaanya cute..
and.. dorang tiga2 ada babak..
ada sekali lahh.. asfa tidur..
dia tak perasan kali asfa sedar sikit..
asfa tengok dia kiss dahi baby tuu..
tiga2 baby tu dia kiss.. asfa pun kena kiss jugaa.. but bukan kat dahi lahh hahahahaha.. lol
eventhough i hv a baby kan..
he is still my favourite one hahahaha..

missing him so much..
please let me love you..
let me hold ur hand forever...
let me turn ur tears to rainbows..

i will make it worth it.. ❤

Wednesday, 12 April 2017

my baby amjan hahahaha

Dear diary.. 
morning.. ❤
i guess he is working rn.. 
and i guess maybe he at the dental counter.. 
hmm harap syak lahh ndada makcik2 ganggu or kacau2 bui asfa ni.. 
coz that what im thinking rn.. 

asfa perasan jugalah.. 
i guess ive change too.. 
u know sometimes.. 
sebab sayang.. 
u can do everything for it.. 
yahh its true that i cant wear makeup.. 
but, i learn it.. 
just because he said.. he wants to see me wif makeup.. 
"asfa kan pempuan.. kena jugaa pandai bemakeup"
so, i wear makeup.. 
yeahh at first.. 
its feel so awkward in my face.. 
and that lipstic.. 
like theres something sticky on my lips.. 
im more serious in thr way im dressing up.. 
kalau kat matriks.. 
yeahh.. mmg lantak jak semua.. 
asal guna baju p kelas.. hahaha..

and sebab sayang jugaa.. 
kita akan fikir byk benda.. 
kalau buat benda ni..
dia suka ka nda.. 
kalau benda ni.. 
dia benci ka ndaa.. 
u will do a lot of efforts.. 
just to get his attentions.. 
u will be worried all the time.. 
and hates all woman around him..
eventhough mmg xda kaitan pun kan..
but still langkah bejaga2.. 
he is too special to let go.. 

all of love stories.. 
love songs..
love quotes..
dirty thoughts.. hahahaha
memang tebayang dia jak lahh..
ndadalah org laen.. 
mmg dia jak balik2.. 
i cant change.. 

sebab bayangkan kenangan ngan dia.. 
saat2 dengan dia.. 
cara dia jaga asfa.. 
cara dia sayang asfa.. 
cara dia risaukan asfa.. 
cara dia berikan kasih sayang dia..
i love all of it.. 
sebab tu lahh.. 
i said.. 
banyak kali dah.. kan..
memang susah nak lupakan dia ni.. hahaha..
tengok atas.. muka dia..
tengok bawah muka dia.. 
tepi kanan n kiri pun.. muka dia jugaa yang tebayang.. 
hahahaha.. gila dah faa.. 

tapi tuulahh.. 
its makes me happy.. 
untuk ingat semua kenangan ngan dia..
and most of the memories..
really unforgetable.. 

he is my baby.. 
and guess what.. im her baby too.. 
hahahaha.. 
and it always gonna be just like that.. 

amjan ❤ asfa

Saturday, 8 April 2017

missing you.. is my habit

Dear diary..
im going back hostel tonight..
im otw to kk.. n rn im at Kunak dah..

im just so happy..
to meet him..
see him before i leave..
i really want to kiss his hand.. before i leave.. but mau buat cemana kan..
i just can see him smile..
memang tatap muka dia puas2 tadi..

abangg..
i will try my best..
be as perfect as u wanted..
if im failed.. please let me know what to correct.. dont leave..

i knew.. u have been hell with ur past relationship.. and guess what..
im the happiest person.. happiest girl to know that all of those relay didnt worked out..
im with u now..
im gonna makesure that u wont ever experience all of that hell again..
u re my baby now..
u will always be.. mine..
and im gonna make u happy..
im gonna spend all of my entire life..
making sure that nothing bad ever happen to you..
im gonna love you.. more than anyone ever does..
and that heart beat...
will always remain in my soul..

i wont ever forget u..
i will try the best i can for you..
i just hope u to never leave..
coz.. u re the best memories that ever happen to me..  ❤


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